Thinking about me
Thinking about us
Dreams do come true. Or so she thought. She was one of the honor students when she graduated from college. Two days after graduation, she received a job offer and was requested to work immediately on the following day. She's working on her dream work place at this very moment and she's starting to fall in love with her stressful yet challenging job. Everything around her seems to go according to how she wanted all of it to be. Or maybe not.
She's in love. In love with the same man that she fell in love with during her high school days. In love with the same man that she often saw in church when she was still young. In love with the same man that her cousins and best friend had been talking about - stories of how great he is in class, how good he is in drawing and how kind and calm he is. In love with the same man that was introduced to her on her first year in college. In love with the same man she sat beside with that one fateful night when she was invited on a celebration at his house. In love with the same man... in love and not wanting to get out of the feeling.
It has been and always will be one of her dreams to be with that young man for the rest of her life. From the day she saw him until the day they became friends until now, all she ever wanted was to become part of his life... his world... his heart.
The times that she spent with him were just brief and countable. She's just contented despite of all those brief moments. As long as she can see him smile, laugh, talk, move... as long as she can see him. But these past few days, everything around her seemed like a blur. She hadn't seen him for days... she hasn't heard anything from him; anything at all - anything to talk away all her anxieties of not knowing his whereabouts those days that had gone by. She missed him so much... so much that it seems like she's dying everyday.
Yesterday, she waited for him to pass by. But then, her efforts were futile and so the same happened the day after. How come she was deprived of him? How come she can't get to see the only man she had devoted her heart to? How come she feels like she's being tortured by the yearning that she feels inside her? How come he didn't seem to mind that he hasn't heard anything from her, too? Does that mean that she's not as important as she thinks she is to him?
She felt awful. She feels like she's being stabbed a thousand times and was left alive to feel the surging pain. But she couldn't let go. She couldn't let go because the feeling of the love that she feels for him was one of the things that gives her the reason to stay happy. He is her happiness. He is her dream. And she can't just let it slip away. After all, she believes that he is her happily ever after.
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