There's Only You... Only YOU. (A Love Letter)

Dear You,

This isn't new anymore, isn't it? Me - writing a letter - for you. But just like the other letters that I wrote, this letter will still be kept in my memory box. Simply because, I don't have the courage to tell you everything that I feel. I know you will stay away from me once you discover that I love you. I've been through hell and back but I can't seem to let go of how I really feel about you. So, this letter will tell you everything... everything that my lips cannot say... everything that my heart wants you to know.

I didn't know when did all these fuss of love started. When I heard your name, there was this unfathomable interest that sprouted in my heart. I asked my friends if they knew you... and luckily, they do! I asked things about you and got to know tiny bits of pieces of your life... and little by little... I fell in love with you.

Not desperate just hoping. It's  been years since you and I were introduced to each other and I still couldn't forget how everything seemed to look so bright at that very moment. It has been years and still nothing has change. I still love you and you still don't know. But come to think about it, what's the use of revealing my feelings when you don't seem to care for me at all? You will react but subtly, that's for sure. For the number of times that I've seen you, I've known you to be so calm and cool. I love you. I really, really, really do. And if given the chance, I want to be with you... to spend a day with you even just for awhile. For a long time now, I have been hoping for that day to come... have been wishing for it to come. But it seems fate is not on my side when it comes to you. It seems that I'll just have to endure the fact that we are living in the same world, breathing the same air and yet, I'm not even allowed to stand near you... fate doesn't even allow me to.

Not expecting but waiting. Yes. I have been waiting all my life for you to finally see me. I have been waiting for a long time for you to feel the same way as I am feeling for you. I am waiting that maybe someday, things will be possible for you to hold my heart. It's hard. Yes, it is. But what can I do? I'm cuffed and tied to you. And I have no plans of breaking out from these thick ropes that you've bound me.

Hating but loving. Yes, I hate you. I hate you for making me feel this way. I hate for not even seeing me as a girl you could love. I hate you for making me feel so alive yet killing me in the process. I hate you for being the reason of my tears and being the only relief for me to smile. I hate you for making me feel like a school girl all over again. I hate you because I love you. I hate you because I really do love you. I hate you... I hate you... I hate you and that's a paradox.

I love you but I am not expecting anything in return. Yes. It's true that I have been wishing in my deepest heart for you to love me...for you to feel the same way for me. But I am not asking for anything in return. I know that there's this other girl that you really adore. I accept that. Even if it feels like I am being killed a hundred times, I can manage that. I love you, you know that, don't you? I have been telling you that since the very beginning of this letter. I have been showing you that since time immemorial. And I won't get tired showing you that even in another lifetime. There is only you, my love. Only you. No one could ever replace you in my heart, do you understand? I love you. I love you. I love you. Just let me love you and I'll be fine.

 One Wish. Please, please do not leave. It's okay if you won't love me back. It's okay if your feelings will not reciprocate mine. Just stay. Please stay. Please stay as my friend. Even if I don't get to see you always, the thought that we're friends is enough for me to survive. Just please... stay.

I love you, you know that, right?


Forever yours,

Me <3

F4 Once More

Who could ever forget the four handsome Asian men who captured every females heart by storm? Certainly, not me.

Jerry, Vic, Ken and Vanness took our breath away when Meteor Garden was aired on Philippine television. The female population's mouth literally dropped when these four men were introduced as the F4 - the hottest boy band in Taiwan and Asia.

When Meteor Garden Season 1 was aired here in the Philippines, hindi kaagad ako na-engganyong manood. I thought it was just another typical love story. Nanibago rin ako noon because that was the first time ABS-CBN aired a Chinovela. It was something I'm not used to so I did not immediately jumped with excitement. But then, mabuti na lang pinilit ako ng best friend ko na manood. She forced me, as in totally forced me to watch Meteor Garden and I really did watch. The inevitable *grins* happened. I got addicted/hooked to Meteor Garden and to its actors and actresses especially, with the famous F4. No one can blame me, though.
Who could ever resist the dance moves and swag of Vaness? Who could ever disagree to Jerry's pleading eyes? Is there a lady in this world who won't melt with Ken's manly aura? And who could ever say 'no' to Vic's soulful voice and eyes?

I could still remember how their faces graced my bedroom walls through posters. I bought one of their CD's also and the notebooks that I used... oh! they're the cover of it. I even asked my mom to buy me a San Cai attire - the skirt, blouse and sling bag. :)

So, up to this present time, I will still be one of those people who will say: "F4 FOREVER"

<3

A Gentleman's Dignity

I am one of those people who got hit by the so-called Korean wave. I love listening to K-Pop. I love the cute and effin' handsome and beautiful Korean actors and actresses. But most of all, I love the Korean dramas.

Last December 2012, ABS-CBN (my favorite local channel) aired a Korean romantic-comedy drama - A Gentleman's Dignity was its title. It was starred by famous Korean actors and actresses like handsomely gorgeous Jang Dong Gun, beautiful Kim Ha Neul, Kim Min-Jong, Kim Soo-Ro and Lee Jong-hyuk. The story was about four gentlemen's (Dong Gun, Min-Jong, Soo-Ro and Jong-hyuk) journey in finding themselves and the love of their lives. They have different personalities - one is a playboy who found the girl that made him change his playboy ways, the second one is a lawyer whose wife died and who fell in love with a younger lady, the third one is a responsible man, a good brother and a loyal lover and the fourth one is a married playboy who could not seem to get away from his womanizing ways, making his wife angry and mad.

The story revolved around those four men and the love of their lives. When watching the movie, one would laugh, cry, would become amused and fascinated with how crazy each of them can get. You would also encounter a lot and I mean 'a lot' of kilig and romantic scenes that would tickle you to the bone. You will have butterflies in your stomach. You will cry your heart out over heart-warming scenes. And you will get addicted to both the cast and the story. One will surely love all of them just like how I fell in love with everything that shouts "A Gentleman's Dignity".

Here are some pictures that I have found in the internet. I really like all of them. Thanks to yahoo.com

 Jang Dong Gun (Dennis Kim/Kim Do Jin) and Kim Ha Neul (Irene Seo/Seo Yi Soo)

I also downloaded some of the cute songs from A Gentleman's Dignity. These are the titles

-Beautiful Words
-My Love
-Everyday
-I Love You
-Spring I Love You
-You Are Everywhere
-Bubble Love
-My Heartache
-More Than Me
-When I Look At You