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I've been thinking about you

Thinking about me

Thinking about us

Dreams do come true. Or so she thought. She was one of the honor students when she graduated from college. Two days after graduation, she received a job offer and was requested to work immediately on the following day. She's working on her dream work place at this very moment and she's starting to fall in love with her stressful yet challenging job. Everything around her seems to go according to how she wanted all of it to be. Or maybe not.

She's in love. In love with the same man that she fell in love with during her high school days. In love with the same man that she often saw in church when she was still young. In love with the same man that her cousins and best friend had been talking about - stories of how great he is in class, how good he is in drawing and how kind and calm he is. In love with the same man that was introduced to her on her first year in college. In love with the same man she sat beside with that one fateful night when she was invited on a celebration at his house. In love with the same man... in love and not wanting to get out of the feeling.

It has been and always will be one of her dreams to be with that young man for the rest of her life. From the day she saw him until the day they became friends until now, all she ever wanted was to become part of his life... his world... his heart. 

The times that she spent with him were just brief and countable. She's just contented despite of all those brief moments. As long as she can see him smile, laugh, talk, move... as long as she can see him. But these past few days, everything around her seemed like a blur. She hadn't seen him for days... she hasn't heard anything from him; anything at all - anything to talk away all her anxieties of not knowing his whereabouts those days that had gone by. She missed him so much... so much that it seems like she's dying everyday.

Yesterday, she waited for him to pass by. But then, her efforts were futile and so the same happened the day after. How come she was deprived of him? How come she can't get to see the only man she had devoted her heart to? How come she feels like she's being tortured by the yearning that she feels inside her? How come he didn't seem to mind that he hasn't heard anything from her, too? Does that mean that she's not as important as she thinks she is to him? 

She felt awful. She feels like she's being stabbed a thousand times and was left alive to feel the surging pain. But she couldn't let go. She couldn't let go because the feeling of the love that she feels for him was one of the things that gives her the reason to stay happy. He is her happiness. He is her dream. And she can't just let it slip away. After all, she believes that he is her happily ever after.

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Dear Heartthrob...

Dear Heartthrob,

            Hello! I don’t know why in the world I am writing a letter to you again. I guess it was because of the fact that I still haven’t gotten over what happened yesterday (March 31, 2013). Any girl in love would never really get over with that! I know because I am a girl in love.

           

            You came! You really came! Did you know that you just made me the happiest girl alive when I saw you dismount from the motorcycle that you were riding yesterday? Did you know that my heart almost escaped from my body when I saw you looking at me as a smile appeared on your lips? Did you know that you completed my day more so, my life? Did you know that you just made me fall for you even more?

            When I invited you to come for my thanksgiving celebration, I never expected that you would come. Honestly, I just invited you with the hopes that somehow you would consider being with me for a brief moment. I was hoping against all hopes but I was not expecting. I could still remember my words when my best friend asked me if you would come: “He did not confirm anything.” So there, I just waited for your SMS to arrive – like I usually do when it comes to you. I just waited without any expectations. I might get hurt, you know – had I expected that you would come. You even said that you will just send me a message if you would come.

            And the day of the celebration arrived. When I received your SMS that you’re on your way, man! Did my heart jumped! *laugh* I felt like I was floating in the air after reading that message of yours. My hands started getting cold, my pulse accelerated and everything in me felt heightened. A few minutes after receiving your text message, you came much to my surprise and I must say shock. It was better that I did not expect anything from you because when you came, everything felt euphoric.

           

            Despite the erratic beating of my heart, I summoned the courage to welcome you and your friend. You introduced me to him, it was really nice. I never thought that one day you would introduce me to one of your friends. It was just a dream before. And yesterday, the dream became a reality.

            My parents, cousins and yep, my neighbors were really surprised when you came. I couldn’t blame them, you know. That was the first time that a guy came for me. And that was the first time they saw my reaction towards a guy. Actually, up until this very moment, I can still see these crazy, teasing smiles on their faces. Questions as to who you are and what you are to me were flying like bullets towards me. They have this assumption that you, my Heartthrob, is my boyfriend.

            After all that has happened, I want to say “thank you” to you. Thank you for coming despite the fact that my house is situated far from yours. Thank you for travelling just to come and see me. Thank you for taking time of celebrating with me and with my family and friends. Thank you for being a good sport despite of that embarrassing moment that we were being teased by my cousins. Thank you for that time that you bonded with my cousins. They really appreciated it. Thank you for introducing me with you friend. Thank you for making that dream a reality. And thank you for giving me one of the most special gifts for that day – your presence. Thank you for making me so happy and so euphoric. Thank you for smiling at me. Thank you for talking to me. Thank you for looking at me with those beautiful eyes of yours. Thank you for making me fall for you even more. I never regretted a single day feeling this way for you.

            I love you, you know that, do you? There will never be another you in my life. Because there’s only you, my Heartthrob. Only you.

Love,

Little Girl